Can someone plz help interpret my dream?

The day before....(yesterday)...my mother announced that she wanted to take me to Puerto Rico for a graduation but i declined due to my fear of airplanes and heights. Still she insists on me going after that convo ending i brought up 2012 and if she thought it was true...a topic i have been poundering about greatly now because im only 17 and that would mean i have two more years to live which would suck not to mention im already a spazz. I have so much planed for my future and it just bothers me that it could be all over so soon. Later that night when i fell a sleep i dreamt of my mom and i at her house and i was in ther room with her talking i then proceeded to be on the streets of manhattan...(time square)... as my eyes graced the sky an airplan blew up but my mom was no where in sight only my dad and other viewers who were in shock. When i woke up from my restless slumber my boyfriend who had been on the phone still when i had fallen asleep said i screamed for my mom saying Mommy. I dont know what to make of this.... i know i can be paranoid but this really isnt sitting well with my my dreams seem to always torment me. And about my paranoia i havent been diagnosed with anythiing because i havent seen a doctor for it...but sometimes i get so frightend to be outside side alone so i try and stay inside but if someone knocks on my door unexpectingly i freak out turn off the lights tv and stay still hopeing whoever it is will disintegrate....so really no matter what im stuck in this paranoia never trully able to have peace.